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so i worked all day, and now i'm hanging out with my sister. what a good day (:

she's leaving ):

honestly, crystal leaving is going to break my heart. i went through it myself, and now i feel like i'm coaching her through this difficult lifestyle. but now all i can do is sit back and watching her go, and hope she has the time of her life. she deserves this experience, from what i hear only the best get it. and i'm excited for her, but i'm scared at the same time. she's been faced with a hard lifestyle, but i know she can do it. i love you crystal<3

I PASSED!

i passed my road test!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wooohooo!

you know what?!

my road test is tomorrow and i'm a little nervous. okay, i'm a lot nervous. but i'm prepared and i just have to remember that. i know everything that i'm supposed to know and i just have to concentrate for that six minutes and i'll be fine. I HOPE! i really don't wanna fail, i'll be miserable.

is this supposed to still be happening?

i know i sound repetitive, but i have to get this off my chest. it feels like my world is great couldn't be better, until the thought of you comes about. someone that looks like you, your favorite kind of fake meat in the store, some lady that looks like your mom. and it makes me go back all over again..why can't i stop thinking about the time we ran on the beach in the rain, in virginia beach, late at night. and i remember how we "had" to stop and make out because it'd be like "in the movies" :D and when we had our first big fight, and i ran out on the sand and cried my eyes out. and you came out barefoot to yell at me and tell me how stupid i was acting. its almost like, even though you made me so miserable sometimes, it didn't matter because i loved being with you and i loved hanging out with you. and i'll never forget the time, you took me to dunkirk to meet your cousins and aunt. i fucking fell in fucking love with your kickass cousins so much, they're amazing. and i miss not going to visit them anymore. i miss your mom, she was so awesome and such a sweatheart. :( and i miss you, most of all, you. when you'd roll over in the middle of the night and wrap your arms around me really tight, i miss things like that. i miss having you there to talk to, and hanging out with you on the weekends. i miss tumbling in your backyard. i miss everything. i just can't forget. not yet anyways<3

global regents :(

well since my global teacher is a complete asshole, i don't plan on passing my regents tomorrow.. i'm kinda stressed out, and i'm pretty sure i'm gunna fail. but i'm hoping for some luck cause i really need to pass! i also found out today that my family is having a huge campout this summer and i'm so excited! wooohooo! :D

crystal lorenzo!

is my best friend! lol i spent the night with her and i love her! not much new has been going on in my life, besides work, school finals, and cheerleading. <3 jpp.

honestly, cheerleading..

as much as i love blaze, and cheerleading is my whole entire world. i'm not about to be on a team where i'm uncomfortable. so if he's on blaze, i'm not, and if he isn't, but he shows up at every practice, i'm not gunna cheer. i don't wanna constantly be reminded i'm not good enough and i don't want to have to cheer with him after all the shit he put me through. so, if he's on, i quit.

i've been cheering on blaze for three years, and someone just steps in and thinks that they can take over? actually not, :D they can't. this is your first season, this is my third.

i'm pissed.

worst day?

so yesterday was the worst day i've ever had, first i had to go to school all day, then work 2:30-9. and as if that wasn't bad enough, i dropped my brand new phone and now the microphone doesn't work on it :( and i got written up at work because my drawer was $9.53, but here's the thing, it wasn't my drawer. they put me on someone elses drawer that had been going since 9 in the morning.. so if they messed it up, and then i just took over, i still got blamed for it.. i'm kinda pissed. and stressed. :/ but i have to work today from 10-4 again, great.

i suck at pretending

i seriously can't take it anymore, i'm done pretending i don't miss you and i'm ok. i'm not ok, everything i see or hear or do makes me think of you. i miss everything about you being here next to me, or me being there next to you. i miss sleeping next to you, i miss you making dinner at my house, i miss your family, your mom, your cousins, your aunt, your stepdaddy thing, and your dog. i miss everything about you, and it's so hard to act okay. everytime my phone rings, i hope it's you, but i'm smarter than that, and i know it wont be. but something inside me still makes me wish it was you. i don't miss the way you treated me sometimes, but i'd take that back in a heart beat just to have you here with me again. :/ i'm done pretending i'm okay, cause i'm not, and you will never understand..

i'm in the best mood right now!

like seriously, the best weekend i've ever had! one, i get a job, two i get my new phone, and three i sing at a karaoke bar in front of a whole bunch of people and they loved me! it was the most amazing feeling and it was such a rewarding experience! omg! i'm seriously the luckiest boy in the world! i love my life right now :D

THE BEST DAY EVER!!!

so today, was AMAZING! first i get a call, from SAVE-a-LOT asking me to work for them :D then i get my new phone! wooohooo, so work was awesome and i like it alot. i work tomorrow 10-4 too :D and it's so fun and so easy, and i love it! my new phone is the best tooo! :DDDDDDDDD

amber's back!!!

so my best friend amber came back to school today after being suspended for like ever! i missed her so much! and we had sooooo much catching up to do :D i'm upset that my new phone didn't come in the mail yet though.. :/ hopefully it comes tomorrow!

new phone :D

woohoo, my new phone should be coming in the mail today! yaya. i'm getting ready to go to school today, and i have lab, AGAIN! i've had it everyday this week :( lol

i'm exciteddd!

okay, so i've had my current phone 3 times, and they suck! well i found out today that there was a recall in February and i could get any phone in the store i wanted. so i'm getting the Vu in the mail tomorrow or friday! i'm so excited! woooohooo! lol, but my day was shit! i'm tired of annoying little bitches in my school (: my math teacher gave me sooo much work to make up from my field trip yesterday and my global teacher is an ass and loaded us with work.. i hate him. and her :D weeeelllll gooood night!

soooo today, i'm determined.

i'm determined to get this issue with my global teacher solved. i'm sick of him picking on me like some little immature four year old.. i shouldn't have to be worried about getting picked on in class.. i'm so sick of this guy, he's such a toolbox. (: have a good day!

nyssma!

me and paige on our chorus trip today!

running on pure anger.

so my day was shitty! first, my chorus teacher tells me this morning that i have the solos.. and i had to perform them two hours later. i wish she would have decided sooner, but you can't expect much from her. the guy who was supposed to have the solos was late so we left without him :D that part i liked cause he always bitches at me about everything! so, i downed a bunch of cough drops and did my best, and the coordinator of the festival said i had a great voice! i hung out with paige all day which was surprisingly the most fun i've had in a while! but then, after we performed i went into the bathroom and changed out of my dress clothes so i wouldn't get anything on them when we stopped at the restaurant on the way home. i had this really cute outfit picked out and i was alll excited, but the second my chorus teacher saw me, she made me change back into my dress clothes.. so when we stopped at the restaurant, paige accidentally got chocolate all over the back of my new dress shirt. so i think i'm gunna make my chorus teacher buy me a new one lmao. i really just had a horrible day :( and to top it all off, me and jamie got in a fist fight cause she's being retarded about everything lately. as if it's not enough that she's favored by my mom and grandparents.. wtf ever. when i got back to school, my asshole global teacher started picking on me as usual, it's funny how i was only there for the last four minutes and he finds some way to be an ass. then! he loads us with work, woohoo! i had to mow the lawn today too, even though i just mowed it last thursday but whatever, i looks good now.

my morning..fml!

goooodmorning! today i have a field trip for chorus to niagara wheatfield high school. i'm not excited at all because the solo that i wanted was given to someone else, a sucky someone else :/ i hate dress clothes and they make me itchhh! lol so that's my whole day, wooohooo! chorus all day! :D not.

my day..

eww, i had the worst day ever! first, my math teacher yelled at me for asking a simple question, so i told her off, jp style :X then i realized that i have a chorus field trip tomorrow and i didn't have a permission slip signed. so i had to go and get one and bring it home so my lovely mother could sign it. then, as if that wasn't enough, my chorus teacher made us sing this song that was extremely high and hurt my throat, hence the reason i have no voice right now. great. oh by the way, my spanish teacher was acting like a complete phsyco today in class. she really gets on my nerves lately, with the "we're in regents mode" and then we get into class and do absolutely nothing but text and goof off all period. which brings me to my next point, little bratty spoiled annoying diva fake bitches in my grade. who do nothing but talk about people all day long "cause they can." how about you find something better to do with your low pathetic life? sound like a plan? :D then i got home and got to listen to how much of a failure i am.. woohoo! great day.

i like talking about you you you you usually, but occasionally! i wanna talk about ME!

is a "troubled child.." lmao

is getting my stuff together for tomorrow's field trip, lmao.

is doing the dishes :/

is chill :D